Monday, February 23

the little surprises

I found an apartment. 2 bedrooms, 1 hot bathroom, nice little kitchen and everything. The rent is a little expensive so I'll have to find myself a room mate but that's fine I guess...

... I don't know if I want a gal or a guy... girls can be fantastic bitches at times... Where do I place my ad? How does this whole thing works?

I'm clueless.

My father keeps leaving voice mails on my cell phone. I'm not talking to him until I've calmed down/don't want to kill him anymore. It'll be a while.

Before moving out, I'm taking a little trip to Hamilton... that's where K lives. He won't talk to me or answer my calls, my emails... I'm going there in the hopes that he won't reject me if I'm around... I just want to talk and settle things...

I don't think I'll fall out of love in one visit but maybe then will I have some answers... I need some answers...

I don't know if he still has feelings for me... maybe the idea of what we had... I don't know. It's amazing how much love can drive a person crazy... I think I'm crazy... I know he's single... but I'm not getting my hopes up.

Going there to talk and get some answers, that's it.

Things will get interesting in the next couple of weeks, that's for sure. I'm patiently waiting...


  1. I understand about the issue... guy or girl. It all depends on being comfortable...

    And... maybe that's what you need: going to Hamilton and talking to him. I wouldn't get my hopes up... he might've moved on. You guys aren't together for a reason, don't jump in if it's not gonna work.

    Hope you're doing fine! Call me!

  2. I'm moving out on the 14th!! YAY!!
    So excited!

    ... I'm a bit nervous about meeting K. He might turn me down there too... I just want to talk... but we'll see I guess.

    Thnx for the support hun!